Saturday, January 12, 2019

WORD PAINTINGS #53 - (TAOS 1/7/19) - TAKING STOCK




"No one is as capable of gratitude as one who has emerged from the kingdom of the night.  We know that every moment is a moment of Grace, every hour an offering" - Jakob Shekaneder

Life without drama is a gift from a chaotic universe.  It doesn't happen every day, but when it does, blessings abound!  This is the beginning of a new year - a time of revaluing, reorganizing - creating order and perhaps some new and healthier habits.  (Smiling broadly as I wrote the words "healthier habits").  Ever since my move from the old house on Santistevan Lane where I accumulated 23 years of "Life", I have been clearing out the old.  Half my household things were either sold or given away.  After my son died living in Tesuque and Santa Fe no longer worked for me.  Taos is my home and I needed to return.  Another purge - pick-up truck loads of paintings and furniture to friends and family.  I became obsessed with simplifying my life.  Back in Taos - a smaller house with good working studio areas.  Am looking around this morning and know that one more clear out will do it - some clothes, dishes - extra pots and pans.  This feels so good!!!  It is only common sense to clear out the clutter - don't leave a mess behind!
Those small studies I mentioned earlier are on the easel right now in various stages of completion.  The first ten will go to Gabe Abrums at Chimayo Trading del Norte in Ranchos de Taos Plaza.  Shortly after arriving back in Taos, Gabe sent an email asking if I would consider him as an agent to sell my work.  Mainly he sells his own beautiful jewelry, native pottery and paintings from old Taos artists like Gene Kloss and Doel Reed.  He has lived in Truchas and his wife, Alicia, is from Chimayo.  It felt like a perfect fit for my paintings!  More than once he has come to my studio looking for one painting and I ended up consigning 15 - leaving my walls bare naked!  Without a doubt this is the best "gallery" connection for me ever!!  They respect my work.  And Gabe has been patient and sensitive enough to understand that sometimes I just need to sit and stare at my big toe.  His sales of my work are consistent.  He pays on time!  I trust him!  Grateful?  You bet!  New paintings for his gallery by the middle of February.
"All who wander are not lost".  I have been a nomad.  It is no secret that I was meant to live in this place for the past 52 years.  Santa Fe, Taos and Truchas have given my life purpose and meaning.  With all the speed bumps on my Road of Life, I can't imagine a better place to have live all this time.  This land has always been a source of healing for me.  Planning another road trip with great photographer and friend, Geraint Smith (www.geraintsmith photography.com).  Kodak is producing Ektachrome slide film again.  Six rolls were delivered from the Camera Shop in Santa Fe last week.  Tears in my eyes to be able to work with my old camera with the Vivitar Zoom Lens.  Digital is fine, but there is nothing like the rich colors from that old Kodak film!  Working on the paintings from my trip this autumn.  Now I want to take some photos in the snow.  I love the winter landscape with a passion!  Subtle colors - lavenders, grays, red willows - shadows on the snow!  Planning another day trip - can't wait!
Groceries today - part of my weekly routine.  Lift myself out of the "holidays".  Straighten up my work area.  Set up a new palette and dive in.  Have the feeling there are still some surprises around the corner!  One day at a time....

WORD PAINTINGS #52 (TAOS, 1 JANUARY 2019)



Taos, New Mexico - 1 January 2019 - Snowflakes the size of nickels this morning!  They float silently; I am floating with them.  Thinking of last year at this time - no snow at all! Talk of drought, forest fires....collective panic.  Not this year!!  These little puffs of clouds are landing on what was another seven inches of SNOW!  Amazing Grace!

6 January 2019 - Another snowy Sunday morning - quiet, peaceful - just the friendly neighborhood crows making themselves known.   Trying to convince myself that it is important for me to keep up with this blog and then I block it out for a couple of weeks.  The urge to keep writing returns.  It is a mystery to me....

Yesterday I read a short handwritten note to young women artists by the great abstract painter, Agnes Martin.  I was inspired.  Just now I found this editorial about her on HOW TO BE AN ARTIST.  She talked about living life above the line - finding a level of happiness.  My current word for happiness is "contentment".  Perhaps that is my struggle with these blog posts.  I am recalling some very sad and painful times.  Strangely the sad times fed the art.  Are these writings a way for me to understand how even the painful times led to a greater commitment to my work?  

My beautiful son, John, died on Christmas Eve four years ago. He was 49.  Each holiday season since has been a struggle to keep myself out of that black pit of despair so familiar to any parent who has lost a beloved child.  Perhaps this is where I hit the wall.  I am remembering all the other difficulties, trying to convince myself that I can live through this one, too.  In the holidays since his death I have invited friends over.  I realized that I was trying to prove that tragedy happened, but I was still okay.  It is those desperate, sweaty attempts to still be okay" which end up being my downfall.    It is a distraction and a cover-up.  Finally I knew I had to go it alone and just face my feelings of loss and sadness.  Got my groceries in for the duration, cut off the phone calls and just let myself grieve!  It is indescribable!

It is obvious to me now that this part of my life is the biggest blank canvas I have ever put on my easel.  There is no roadmap.  Will this "thing" - my Art Thing save me one more time?  I don't know.  I am no longer young and not as resilient as I was before.  In all my years of painting last year was my least productive.   My feelings caught up with me.  Truthfully I gave in to the sorrow.  The short trip I had with my friend Geraint recently wakened a little spark.  200 photographs of my favorite places in and around Truchas resulted in about 15 small underpaintings - studies from that trip.  Am I inspired yet?  I don't know.  

The River of Creation - Years ago whenever I felt stuck for ideas or energy, I imagined this fast moving river that flowed under everything.  In those dark waters were all the thoughts, ideas, inspirations that came to my favorite artists - Degas, Cassatt, Van Gogh, Rodin - too many to count; I was comforted to know that their sparks of creation would always be there every time I needed to feel that fire in my belly.  What I know for sure is that it takes that first step to begin again.  Making art is the way I breathe - it is my wholeness.  My word for this year is "Grace" - I have been lifted up through many difficulties - it is time for me to just allow and trust my Art Gods one more time.

Have no idea where this will take me - my intentions are to be clear and honest.  Since this is another place of profound change, perhaps I need to just move forward for a time....and refer to my past experiences more incidentally....stream of consciousness seems to be working for now. 

A new year - my place of New Beginnings - empty-handed leap into the Great Unknown.....   

Sunday, December 16, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #51 - Kiva Road Santa Fe 1969/72


WORD PAINTINGS #51 (How I Came to New Mexico and learned about Art & Life) - Kiva Road,  Anta Fe 1969/72 - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Sunday, November 18, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #48 - A SENTIMENTAL JOURNEY PART VI "A DOLL'S HOUSE"

WORD PAINTINGS #48 (How I came to New Mexico and Learned About Art & Life) - A SENTIMENTAL JOURNEY PART VI - "A DOLL'S HOUSE" http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Sunday, November 04, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #47 - MAYORDOMO OF TRUCHAS


WORD PAINTINGS #47 (How I came to New Mexico and learned about Art and Life - A Sentimental Journey Part IV - MAYORDOMO OF TRUCHAS
http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Thursday, November 01, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #46 - A SENTIMENTAL JOURNEY PART III - SOUL FOOD

WORD PAINTINGS #46 (How I Came to New Mexico and learned about Art and Life)- A SENTIMENTAL JOURNEY PART III - SOUL FOOD - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

HOMENAJE A LA VIDA

HOMENAJE A LA VIDA "To Life" - Dia de los Muertos -- Women celebrating the lives of loved ones who have died. this canvas was painted many years ago and purchased by Bill and Jack, the original owners of Artisan/Santa Fe. Believe it is still at home somewhere in Santa Fe. DC

WORD PAINTINGS #45 - A Sentimental Journey Part II

WORD PAINTINGS #45 (How I Came to New Mexico and learned about Art & Life) - A Sentimental Journey - Don Eusavio's Paradise - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Saturday, October 27, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #44 - A SENTIMENTAL JOURNEY

WORD PAINTINGS #44 (How I Came to New Mexico and Learned About Art and Life) - "A SENTIMENTAL JOURNEY - Taos 10/18) - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Sunday, October 21, 2018

FRIDAY AFTERNOON STUDIO - 10/19/18

FRIDAY AFTERNOON STUDIO - 10/19/18

NEW WORK IN PROGRESS! - RANCHITOS ROAD - 30"x40" Original Oil

Studio No. 1518 - Work in Progress - RANCHITOS ROAD - NEW 30"x40" - Working into the glazes - preparing to bring painting to completion - Stay tuned!

Tuesday, October 16, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #42 & 43 - " "HOW DO YOU EAT AN ELEPHANT?" & "STARTING OVER"

WORD PAINTINGS #42 & #43 - "HOW DO YOU EAT AN ELEPHANT?" and "STARTING OVER!" - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/. After writing these two posts, I'm going to take a nap! Thanking everyone - your comments on this blog are much appreciated. New paintings on the easel today - stay tuned!
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Saturday, October 13, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #41 - "IF WISHES WERE FISHES"

WORD PAINTINGS #41 (How I came to New Mexico and learned about Art & Life) - "IF WISHES WERE FISHES" - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

WORD PAINTINGS #40 - KINDRED SPIRITS

WORD PAINTINGS #40 (How I came to New Mexico and learned about Art and Life) - "KINDRED SPIRITS" - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, October 10, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #39 - GHOST TOWNS AND WIDE OPEN SPACES....


WORD PAINTINGS #39 (How I Came to New Mexico and Learned about Art and Life) - GHOST TOWNS AND WIDE OPEN SPACES - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Sunday, October 07, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #38 - I AM AN ARTIST!!

WORD PAINTINGS #38 - "I AM AN ARTIST" - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/ (Note: One of my earliest paintings after moving to New Mexico - 1969 - "Toby, A Time of Flowers")

Saturday, October 06, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #37 - 10/6/18 Taos, New Mexico

Word Paintings #37 - 10/6/18 - Taos, New Mexico  - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, October 03, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #35 - BONNIE AND FRANK

WORD PAINTINGS #35 (How I Came to New Mexico and learned about Art and Life) - "Bonnie and Frank" - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/

Tuesday, October 02, 2018

WORD PAINTINGS #34 - THE GREAT CHICAGO BLIZZARD OF 1967

WORD PAINTINGS #34 (How I came to New Mexico and learned about Life and Art) - "The Great Chicago Blizzard of 1967" - http://donnaclairwordpaintings.blogspot.com/